Title is just taken from a song that's coming up next in my playlist. It's been a Radiohead afternoon.
So I usually try to shy away from personal stuff in my blogs, just because anyone can find them and I don't expect to get many followers if I'm always going on about myself. Not that I've had many subscribers anyway, but I digress. Sometimes a person needs to rant, and this is my rant. The only people I know in real life who definitely know the link to my blog are trustworthy, so if they happen to stumble across this then so be it.
I don't like our society. We worship the wrong people, we shun the ones who help us and everyone acts like it's all in black and white (Pokemon reference? Well, no, but whatever). Um, excuse me, but just because you're hot, doesn't mean you're important. Doctors help us, so we really shouldn't be neglecting the smart kids who'll one day grow up to remove cancerous tumors from our systems. And there are so many gray areas in life, there's rarely a definite 'yes' or 'no' answer. Unless you're really into maths. That's the only time everything is definitive.
'Course, it'd be nice if everything was in black and white. I wish I could just have a scan of my brain and have scientists say "ok, you're like this mentally, you like this sort of people and you're subconsciously into this". I hate talking to someone only to realise a few days later that you kind of maybe hate their guts. I'm sick of people getting put down about their sexuality when they didn't choose it, and, as I'm sure many other people would agree with me, being upset over nothing sucks and I'd like to know if there's a reason for it.
Ahem, that went off on its own tangent. I'm going to use relationships as an example for my recent epiphany on life. There've been times when I've really liked someone, gotten close to dating them and then suddenly I just don't like them anymore. It's like I'm subconsciously messing with them. I don't want to do that. Not to mention that there have been times when I've seen someone and gone "damn I'd like to tap that. Pity she's the wrong gender".
Really now. I don't think I'm a lesbian. I definitely like guys. I'm pretty iffy about being bisexual, although I've never thought about that before, either. I don't like women. They're bitchy, emotional and lack the physical features I'd like in a partner. And while boobs make for great pillows, it's annoying and awkward trying to hug someone and just smooshing our fatty chest-tissue together.
Still, I can't help but question my sexuality just a little bit. More and more homosexuals are appearing in every day media and I know of at least one of my friends who's gay. No, I'm not thinking about being gay because it's the new it thing, I'm thinking about it because it's no longer seen as a horrible, unspoken thing. It's real and it's not a sin. I have a big rant about religious views on same-sex couples but let's not get into that now. I've liked a girl. Just one. Like I said, I don't usually like women. Except for this one. And while nothing would ever happen between us, it was a big slap in the face. I spent a good portion of that crush berating myself and metaphorically punching walls in my mind.
Should I have done that? No. Did I do it anyway? Yeah, I did. Someone should've slapped me but nobody else knew about it at the time.
'Course, that's no excuse. I should've been able to slap myself out of it, but I didn't. It's a bit hypocritical. I've always been for gay rights and I often tell people that sexuality doesn't matter. Still, it's different when it's actually you. It's different and considerably more difficult.
Whether the fanfiction I read and write affects me is questionable. Yeah, I guess it does, but does it directly influence me? That's a harder thing to answer. There's lots of yaoi and yuri fics and that's probably opened me up to everything more. Everything influences me though. So now I'm even more confused. Am I thinking about this more because of everything around me? Is this a generic 'finding yourself' phase?
I don't know. I don't care. I don't think life is a puzzle where we just wait for the pieces to fall into place (and that is how I will incorporate the title. Yeahh). I think it's more like tetris. We think we know what's going on now but we don't actually know what the next piece will be. The pieces can be anything, and they'll all be shaped depending on what's around us and what we learn. When we do get the next piece, we're just going to have to fit it in somehow.
Yay for random unintelligible babble!
Sep 20, 2010
Sep 7, 2010
No More Tests This Term =D
I did my last test today. I've been sick since Saturday and had barely eaten for just as long, so my concentration was shot. But hey, at least I did the test right?
Speaking of being sick, what on earth comes up when you have nothing else left in your stomach to throw up? It hurts to throw it up so I'm assuming it isn't good. Bile? Stomach lining? Ouch, I'm going to go and assume that it wasn't my stomach lining.
9/10 (depending on region/timezones) days before Pokemon Black and White come out in Japan. I'm excited for the influx of information we'll get. I predict that Mijumaru will end up more popular than Pokablu (sp? I'm too lazy to google how that's spelled) despite the hoards of people who hated the cute little otter at first. Tsutaaja will remain popular. That's pretty obvious.
I also think I should start saving up my cash if I actually want to buy one of the games D=
I'm going to play Zelda: OoT Masterquest again after the album I'm listening to finishes (Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie, by the way). I'm currently at the entrance to the Fire Temple. Whoop whoop ^_^
Here's some lyrics from Tiny Vessels by Death Cab. Love this song.
I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
All the playful misspellings
And every bite I gave you left a mark
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did, and so did I that day
Speaking of being sick, what on earth comes up when you have nothing else left in your stomach to throw up? It hurts to throw it up so I'm assuming it isn't good. Bile? Stomach lining? Ouch, I'm going to go and assume that it wasn't my stomach lining.
9/10 (depending on region/timezones) days before Pokemon Black and White come out in Japan. I'm excited for the influx of information we'll get. I predict that Mijumaru will end up more popular than Pokablu (sp? I'm too lazy to google how that's spelled) despite the hoards of people who hated the cute little otter at first. Tsutaaja will remain popular. That's pretty obvious.
I also think I should start saving up my cash if I actually want to buy one of the games D=
I'm going to play Zelda: OoT Masterquest again after the album I'm listening to finishes (Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie, by the way). I'm currently at the entrance to the Fire Temple. Whoop whoop ^_^
Here's some lyrics from Tiny Vessels by Death Cab. Love this song.
I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
All the playful misspellings
And every bite I gave you left a mark
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did, and so did I that day
Sep 2, 2010
A Conversation with the Spirits
So I've been lurking here and reading the responses. Some people have Ouija Boards and have asked other people on the SA forums to ask questions. The board owners would then relay back what the spirits said.
The entire thread is just... whoa, just whoa.
So my friend and I have been trying to decipher the messages. This is what we've gotten so far.
- We all have spirit guides. All of us.
- We can't know the meaning of life or what the afterlife is like, as we aren't ready yet.
- Not all spirits are bad.
- One spirit says that the afterlife is beautiful. Another one did not have the same sentiments. Does this mean that it varies from person to person?
- Dying doesn't hurt.
- According to one, the most important thing is love. She continually said that, no matter how many times she was asked. ^_^
- The worst thing is hate.
- Two separate spirits mentioned that there were (possibly-soulless) creatures called caretakers with them.
- There are spirits from separate worlds. But our spirits can't contact them.
- Which religion is correct? All of them, apparently.
- Do atheists go to hell? Nope, apparently they 'learn'. My friend and I think this means that not just them, but all of us learn (seeing as all our religions are correct..?)
It's actually quite freaky. I don't know how true this stuff is, but part of me is inclined to believe it. The posts are old, from like 2008 or something, and one of the spirits predicted Travolta's sons death. Fluke? Yeah maybe.
The entire thread is just... whoa, just whoa.
So my friend and I have been trying to decipher the messages. This is what we've gotten so far.
- We all have spirit guides. All of us.
- We can't know the meaning of life or what the afterlife is like, as we aren't ready yet.
- Not all spirits are bad.
- One spirit says that the afterlife is beautiful. Another one did not have the same sentiments. Does this mean that it varies from person to person?
- Dying doesn't hurt.
- According to one, the most important thing is love. She continually said that, no matter how many times she was asked. ^_^
- The worst thing is hate.
- Two separate spirits mentioned that there were (possibly-soulless) creatures called caretakers with them.
- There are spirits from separate worlds. But our spirits can't contact them.
- Which religion is correct? All of them, apparently.
- Do atheists go to hell? Nope, apparently they 'learn'. My friend and I think this means that not just them, but all of us learn (seeing as all our religions are correct..?)
It's actually quite freaky. I don't know how true this stuff is, but part of me is inclined to believe it. The posts are old, from like 2008 or something, and one of the spirits predicted Travolta's sons death. Fluke? Yeah maybe.
Aug 29, 2010
I'm a Very Bad Influence
(Stolen from this awesome dude)
[] Smoked.
[x] Consumed alcohol.
[] Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[x] Kissed someone of the same sex.
[] Had sex.
[x] Had someone in your room other than family.
[x] Watched porn.
[] Bought porn.
[] Tried drugs.
TOTAL SO FAR: 5
[x] Taken painkillers.
[x] Taken someone else's prescription medicine.
[x] Lied to your parents.
[x] Lied to a friend.
[] Snuck out of the house.
[x] Done something illegal.
[x] Felt hurt.
[x] Hurt someone.
[x] Wished someone to die.
[] Seen someone die.
TOTAL SO FAR: 13
[] Missed curfew.
[] Stayed out all night.
[] Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
[] Been to a therapist.
[] Received a ticket.
[] Been to rehab.
[x] Dyed your hair.
[] Been in an accident.
[] Been to a club.
[] Been to a bar.
TOTAL SO FAR: 14
[] Been to a wild party.
[] Been to a Mardi Gras parade.
[] Drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
[] Had a spring break in Florida.
[x] Sniffed anything.
[x] Wore black nail polish.
[x] Wore arm bands.
[x] Wore t-shirts with band names.
[x] Listened to rap.
[ ] Owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL SO FAR: 19
[x] Dressed gothic.
[x] Dressed girly.
[x] Dressed punk.
[x] Dressed grunge. (I've gone through many stages xD)
[x] Stolen something. (It was a sparkly thing and I was 8 at the time. ahahaha)
[] Been too drunk to remember anything.
[] Blacked out.
[] Fainted.
[] Had a crush on a neighbor.
TOTAL SO FAR: 24
[x] Had a crush on a friend.
[x] Been to a concert.
[x] Dry-humped someone; been dry humped.
[x] Been called a slut.
[x] Called someone a slut.
[] Installed speakers in a car.
[x] Broken a mirror.
[] Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
[x] Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL SO FAR: 31
[] Considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] Seen an R-rated movie.
[x] Cruised the mall.
[x] Skipped school.
[x] Had surgery.
[x] Had an injury.
[] Gone to court.
[x] Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. (wait, people actually leave tips?)
[x] Caught something on fire.
[x] Lied about your age.
TOTAL SO FAR: 39
[] Owned/rented an apartment/house.
[] Broke the law in the police's presence.
[] Made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[] Got in trouble with the police. (Nope, got in trouble with security at many shopping malls though)
[x] Talked to a stranger.
[] Hugged a stranger.
[] Kissed a stranger.
[] Rode in the car with a stranger.
[] Been harassed.
[x] Been verbally harassed.
TOTAL SO FAR: 41
[] Met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] Stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
[x] Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
[x] Watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] Been to a fair.
[x] Been called a bad influence.
[] Drank and drove.
[x] Prank-called someone.
[x] Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] Laid on a couch with someone of the same sex.
[x] Cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 50
If you have less than 10, write "I'm a goody-goody"
If you have more than 10, write "I'm still a goody-goody"
If you have more than 20, write "I'm average"
If you have more than 30, write "I'm a bad kid"
If you have more than 40, write "I'm a very bad influence"
If you have more than 50, write "I'm a horrible person"
If you have more than 60, write "I should be in jail"
If you have more than 70, write "I should be dead"
If you have more than 80, write "I got a ticket to Hell"
[] Smoked.
[x] Consumed alcohol.
[] Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[x] Kissed someone of the same sex.
[] Had sex.
[x] Had someone in your room other than family.
[x] Watched porn.
[] Bought porn.
[] Tried drugs.
TOTAL SO FAR: 5
[x] Taken painkillers.
[x] Taken someone else's prescription medicine.
[x] Lied to your parents.
[x] Lied to a friend.
[] Snuck out of the house.
[x] Done something illegal.
[x] Felt hurt.
[x] Hurt someone.
[x] Wished someone to die.
[] Seen someone die.
TOTAL SO FAR: 13
[] Missed curfew.
[] Stayed out all night.
[] Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
[] Been to a therapist.
[] Received a ticket.
[] Been to rehab.
[x] Dyed your hair.
[] Been in an accident.
[] Been to a club.
[] Been to a bar.
TOTAL SO FAR: 14
[] Been to a wild party.
[] Been to a Mardi Gras parade.
[] Drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
[] Had a spring break in Florida.
[x] Sniffed anything.
[x] Wore black nail polish.
[x] Wore arm bands.
[x] Wore t-shirts with band names.
[x] Listened to rap.
[ ] Owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL SO FAR: 19
[x] Dressed gothic.
[x] Dressed girly.
[x] Dressed punk.
[x] Dressed grunge. (I've gone through many stages xD)
[x] Stolen something. (It was a sparkly thing and I was 8 at the time. ahahaha)
[] Been too drunk to remember anything.
[] Blacked out.
[] Fainted.
[] Had a crush on a neighbor.
TOTAL SO FAR: 24
[x] Had a crush on a friend.
[x] Been to a concert.
[x] Dry-humped someone; been dry humped.
[x] Been called a slut.
[x] Called someone a slut.
[] Installed speakers in a car.
[x] Broken a mirror.
[] Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
[x] Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL SO FAR: 31
[] Considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] Seen an R-rated movie.
[x] Cruised the mall.
[x] Skipped school.
[x] Had surgery.
[x] Had an injury.
[] Gone to court.
[x] Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. (wait, people actually leave tips?)
[x] Caught something on fire.
[x] Lied about your age.
TOTAL SO FAR: 39
[] Owned/rented an apartment/house.
[] Broke the law in the police's presence.
[] Made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[] Got in trouble with the police. (Nope, got in trouble with security at many shopping malls though)
[x] Talked to a stranger.
[] Hugged a stranger.
[] Kissed a stranger.
[] Rode in the car with a stranger.
[] Been harassed.
[x] Been verbally harassed.
TOTAL SO FAR: 41
[] Met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] Stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
[x] Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
[x] Watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] Been to a fair.
[x] Been called a bad influence.
[] Drank and drove.
[x] Prank-called someone.
[x] Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] Laid on a couch with someone of the same sex.
[x] Cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 50
If you have less than 10, write "I'm a goody-goody"
If you have more than 10, write "I'm still a goody-goody"
If you have more than 20, write "I'm average"
If you have more than 30, write "I'm a bad kid"
If you have more than 40, write "I'm a very bad influence"
If you have more than 50, write "I'm a horrible person"
If you have more than 60, write "I should be in jail"
If you have more than 70, write "I should be dead"
If you have more than 80, write "I got a ticket to Hell"
Aug 24, 2010
My Impossible Love Affair (With VG OST's)
I love my video game OST's, or, for those not in the know, original soundtracks. There's something oddly comforting about listening to music from games I absolutely adore, not to mention how nice background tracks actually sound. They're more atmospheric, of course. That's what I love about them. Movie OST's are much the same, but I listen to more VG OST's as I'm more intimately acquainted with video games than I am with movies.
I've managed to find many old and new soundtracks, ranging from the entirety of the Super Smash Bros. Brawl soundtrack (approx. 200 tracks or so) to the older, simpler Yoshi's Story for N64 (there's less than 15 tracks on that one, I believe. I'm too lazy to go count). I've never played the Earthbound games, but I still got my hands on the Mother 3 soundtrack. Anime OST's are also something I like to collect. I'm working on downloading the Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni soundtrack (both the soundtracks from the anime and the visual novel.)
But I simply cannot find the OST of Animal Crossing: Let's Go to the City (City Folk for most of you). I can get some of the main tracks, but not the K.K. Slider tracks or the hourly tunes. I can get most of K.K. Slider's live shows, just not the tracks that play in your house (not that I'm as fond of those, but I'd like them regardless). And I can get the hourly tunes condensed into one track, but not separate tracks. Don't bother looking for the tracks that play when it's raining or during winter; they're even more difficult to find. I can get a handful of them off of Youtube, but that's about all.
It doesn't help that one of the users on Youtube had uploaded quite a few of them, but they were taken down due to copyright issues. I understand the whole copyright thing, but I can't get the soundtrack anywhere else. Not even the official soundtrack seems to feature all the songs, so I'm not even able to get them legally. It's not the first time this has happened, but it's one of the most infuriating. I love AC:CF, especially the music. And I would like a copy to listen to while walking/working/suffering from insomnia. That would indeed be a dream come true.
I've managed to find many old and new soundtracks, ranging from the entirety of the Super Smash Bros. Brawl soundtrack (approx. 200 tracks or so) to the older, simpler Yoshi's Story for N64 (there's less than 15 tracks on that one, I believe. I'm too lazy to go count). I've never played the Earthbound games, but I still got my hands on the Mother 3 soundtrack. Anime OST's are also something I like to collect. I'm working on downloading the Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni soundtrack (both the soundtracks from the anime and the visual novel.)
But I simply cannot find the OST of Animal Crossing: Let's Go to the City (City Folk for most of you). I can get some of the main tracks, but not the K.K. Slider tracks or the hourly tunes. I can get most of K.K. Slider's live shows, just not the tracks that play in your house (not that I'm as fond of those, but I'd like them regardless). And I can get the hourly tunes condensed into one track, but not separate tracks. Don't bother looking for the tracks that play when it's raining or during winter; they're even more difficult to find. I can get a handful of them off of Youtube, but that's about all.
It doesn't help that one of the users on Youtube had uploaded quite a few of them, but they were taken down due to copyright issues. I understand the whole copyright thing, but I can't get the soundtrack anywhere else. Not even the official soundtrack seems to feature all the songs, so I'm not even able to get them legally. It's not the first time this has happened, but it's one of the most infuriating. I love AC:CF, especially the music. And I would like a copy to listen to while walking/working/suffering from insomnia. That would indeed be a dream come true.
Aug 22, 2010
I'd Travel Half the World to Say 'You Are My Muse'
I got this awesome hat today. Most people would say it isn't awesome because it makes my head look big, but I think it is an awesome hat.
I started playing OoT Masterquest for the first time since my sister broke the disc (I have to use an emulator, unfortunately) and I must say, it'd be easier if I hadn't played the original game. I was thrown off course when I had to go to the top floor first, because that goes against the entirety of the dungeon in the original game. It's fun to try and figure out what to do though.
I'm up to the Forest Temple now. I can only play when I'm not doing school work. Which sucks. By the time I play again I don't remember what I was doing before I saved and I get confused. =_=
Yesterday I went iceskating. I now know that it is nothing like roller skating. The ice is slippery and you slide everywhere. I didn't fall over once, but I did a lot of arm flailing.
I'm listening to Muse at the moment. I don't care for their most recent album, but it's still nice to listen to them again anyway.
I started playing OoT Masterquest for the first time since my sister broke the disc (I have to use an emulator, unfortunately) and I must say, it'd be easier if I hadn't played the original game. I was thrown off course when I had to go to the top floor first, because that goes against the entirety of the dungeon in the original game. It's fun to try and figure out what to do though.
I'm up to the Forest Temple now. I can only play when I'm not doing school work. Which sucks. By the time I play again I don't remember what I was doing before I saved and I get confused. =_=
Yesterday I went iceskating. I now know that it is nothing like roller skating. The ice is slippery and you slide everywhere. I didn't fall over once, but I did a lot of arm flailing.
I'm listening to Muse at the moment. I don't care for their most recent album, but it's still nice to listen to them again anyway.
Aug 18, 2010
Roleplay Fun
There's a group of people that do Pokemon Roleplays on Facebook. The characters from the PokeSpec and Game universes seem to coexist in the same universe, somehow, but apart from that continuation error it's not bad. Of course, they all go very OoC at times but I digress.
Anywho, Silver was upset about not being loved by Kotone, I believe. (I stop reading from time to time. It gets confusing.) This is what was said by Silver and Bugsy (? Possibly a roleplay for the gym leader, although I'm not certain.)
Bugsy Trap: If you truly love her, you won't give up that easily.
Silver (Pokemon Special): No, but she liikes brighter colors than silver apparently...
Bugsy Trap: Even silver can shine.
Silver (Pokemon Special): And tarnish...
Bugsy Trap: Even bright colors become sepia under the sun.
It's up to you whether you shine or not.
Just thought that it sounded way cool and I should post it.
Alright, I'll go back to lurking on random forums. Ciao~
Anywho, Silver was upset about not being loved by Kotone, I believe. (I stop reading from time to time. It gets confusing.) This is what was said by Silver and Bugsy (? Possibly a roleplay for the gym leader, although I'm not certain.)
Bugsy Trap: If you truly love her, you won't give up that easily.
Silver (Pokemon Special): No, but she liikes brighter colors than silver apparently...
Bugsy Trap: Even silver can shine.
Silver (Pokemon Special): And tarnish...
Bugsy Trap: Even bright colors become sepia under the sun.
It's up to you whether you shine or not.
Just thought that it sounded way cool and I should post it.
Alright, I'll go back to lurking on random forums. Ciao~
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